.:.Maybe vacillation is an o9a trait? The Old Guards told me long, long, ago, way back in 2010ish that they were going to leave cyberspace… and they are still around 12 years later. And… I’m still here. Unfortunately, I have emotions. My emotions are what makes me come back and forth to ONA. One emotion is “long-time” sentimental attachment, like how you get sentimentally attached to a certain heirloom your late grandmother may have given to you… or like how as children we were sentimentally attached to teddy bears and dolls… or like how you grow attached to an old pair of faded jeans with holes in them but you can’t throw them out because you’ve had those jeans for so long, despite the functional fact that such holely [holy? holey? Idk how spell it ((the adjective of “hole”))] don’t function properly in a practical way. ONA is like an old pair of my favorite jeans with holes in them which I can’t seem to throw away.
It would have been easier for me to throw these old jeans away and sever my sentimental ties with ONA, if things were left the way they were, and no new writings or blogs presented themselves. Unfortunately, after clicking on links at theo9away.wordpress.com site, I stumbled upon a new o9a archive, addressed as [gawathan.wordpress.com]. My emotions changed after I read the PDFs on that gawatham blog, one of those PDF’s is an interview of Anton Long dated 2021 called “An Aristocratic Ethos.” The other PDF that influenced my emotions was one called the “Boundaries of O9A Philosophy.”
It’s hard to explain my emotions I feel after reading those PDFs. The emotions are a mix of Sympathy and Guilt. I will explain both feelings one at a time.
By the emotion of Sympathy, what I mean is that I like “Anton Long,” or the person behind that penname. As a human being, I have a certain aspect of my personality and characteristic where I just like helping people out with whatever they are doing, like projects, brainstorming, homework, research, whatever; even if they don’t directly/specifically ask me for help. If they don’t stop me, I will just keep trying to help them. And that aspect of my personality comes from my Brain’s need for stimuli. I just simply love to solve problems and mysteries. It’s the underlying reason why I spend so much time doing Natural Philosophy and studying Nature: because its a huge Mystery that can be solved.
And so its because of that dharma I have for wanting to stimulate my brain by solving problems and mysteries that gives me the emotion of Sympathy for Anton Long. He seems to be wanting to do something or go somewhere with the ONA. I get that impression because: why on earth would a human being from England, on this earth, which is in the middle of nowhere special in the universe, spending so much of his mortal time on such an earth [50 years and counting] putting in the time and effort to make ONA and write ONA shit? It must mean something to him? He must be going somewhere with it? There are so many things a elderly human being can spend their mortal time on earth doing, like find a ladyfriend, travel the world, garden, but Anton Long seems to have a thing for this ONA thing? What’s he trying to do, I wonder? Whatever he’s trying to do: I can help in my own ways by looking for problems and malfunctions, and figuring out how to work out those bugs… “debug” ONA as the computer jocks would say [there are bugs in ONA memeplex: unless you are suggesting to me that Anton Long is – like the Pope – perfect and infallible]. My Sympathy for Anton Long is rooted in Curiosity: I’m just curious what he is doing, when he dedicates 40-50 years of his human life manifesting ONA.
And so, in that curiosity, over the years, I mis-interpreted what Anton Long was trying to do. In the past, during the early years [2007-2009], I thought Anton Long was trying to make ONA into a satanic cult. And so, what I did was write a bunch of stuff about ONA that pulled all of the Satanic stuff to the foreground and pushed all of the other stuff to the background. But Anton Long wasn’t making a satanic cult. And so, I later thought that maybe – given his early years – that Anton Long was trying to make a Nazi cult. I can help with that too. I’m not White or a Nazi… but who cares, I can swing way Far Right rhetorically and talk Hitler shit. But I learned that he wasn’t trying to make a Nazi cult either. Maybe he’s trying to make a philosophical thing? Like his own school/denomination of philosophy? I can help with that too. And so I talk a lot about Buddhism and Natural Philosophy.
And so, that’s what I mean by my emotion of Sympathy for Anton Long. I don’t mean that a pity him.
What I mean by my emotions of Guilt… there are many reasons why I feel guilty. I make mistakes in/with ONA since 2006/2007. I failed many times in my attempts and endeavors to do certain things. For the past year, I have been thinking: ‘If me and all those ONA people [Old Guards and so on] did not (1) talk Anton Long into retiring & (2) did not make it open source… would everything that happened since 2018 ever happened?’
I feel Guilty, because I said that ONA was liberal in neutering and getting rid of Anton Long. The truth is, because of my helpful nature, I had a lot to do with that. The reasoning – back then, as I shared with the Old Guards – that I believed that Anton Long should retire, was that ONA needs to be weened from an ideological source and that ONA should not be become a personality cult. Because if ONA remains dependent on Anton Long to keep feeding them/us “official/authoritative” manuscripts, and if ONA becomes an Anton Long worshiping personality cult and the person behind Anton Long passes away of old age [as we all do in Time], then: ONA will die with him. If you go back and re-read the poem I wrote called Caladrius, which I wrote way back in 2009, before Anton Long retired: you can see where my mind was and that even back then, I saw a problem with Anton Long being the head of ONA. In that Caladrius poem, I said: “So dependent on your nightingale that you become sick and lost without her.” And so, in order to heal the King: you have to remove the King’s dependence on that nightingale.
But, when ONA became leaderless and open source, new problems arose: people randomly, from time to time, began to claim to be the new leader or the new outer rep of ONA; and entryism took place. The most significant entryism in ONA’s recent history would be agents acting thru telegram and the ToB manipulating people. I feel Guilty because I was, and still am a huge proponent of a leaderless and open source ONA. Back in 2013, in my resignation paper I turned into the Old Guards, I specifically wrote, defying growing sentiments in ONA at that time, that the only ONA I recognize is one that is leaderless.
Was this a big mistake I had made? I feel very bad inside, because all those years, I was only trying to help Anton Long grow ONA, and I helped cause big problems.
That feeling of Guilt from making mistakes in the past, gives birth to another Guilt I feel: I feel Guilty for leaving/abandoning a big mess I helped make, and not trying to clean up after myself. It’s like me saying: “So yeah… ONA seems to be fucked up… I don’t like it no more… see ya! You guys can fix it!”
And so in my feelings of Guilt, I came back to try to fix problems I see, which I helped make: the problem of ONA needing ethical boundaries, or needing to get rid of that document “authority of individual judgment.” [*]
Which is when I called a Truce to have an open discussion.
COMPROMISES & CONCESSIONS
I’m familiar with negotiations. Mostly from my many years as a tagger, and working the political side of tagger crews with our shot callers. Rival crews “battle” each other for things like territory, their members, spray cans, weed. After the battle/war, we hold Negotiations. A “negotiation” just means when two rival crews/nations sit down to make Compromises and Concessions, in order that BOTH sides benefit somehow. That’s the Honorable way to do things as the winner of a war: you are considerate of your rival’s needs and wellbeing. It’s dishonorable as the winner to just take everything: it makes you look bad to everybody, and exposes your ignoble character.
For example, this one time, our crew had won a battle with a rival crew. The stipulation of the battle was that the losing crew gives up their best tagger to the winning crew. We won, and so we initially demanded that the losing crew give up their best tagger, per stipulations. The losing crew said: “Come on… he’s our best dude. If we lose him, then how are we going to win battles with other crews?” And so, our crew made a Compromise, we said: “Okay… you keep him. But you give us your spray cans, and Green River street as part of our turf, and if our crew gets into a battle your crew helps us and vise versa. Deal?” The rival crew agreed, and so they made the Concession of: giving us all their spray cans and one of their streets they controlled and promising to help us in future battles.”
And so Compromise just means that you understand that you cannot always have things your way, that you must give up certain demands, that you must meet the other party half way. And Concession means to understand that you need to give the other party things. The honorable end goal is: mutual benefit, which is the desired end result where peace and harmony can arise.
And so, those two concepts [Compromises and Concessions] came to my mind when I read the several PDF’s at the Gawatham O9A Archive blog. It fix problems in ONA, Anton Long and the Old Guards made Concessions, where they brought all the boring stuff of ethos and ethics to the foreground of ONA… made such concept of ethics relevant again. They also, via those PDFs, made it known that ONA is not socially liberal because ONA is still about its Traditions.
Because of those Concessions, which I really like, I feel Guilty for abandoning ONA [the spirit/egregore of ONA], and am happily willing to make Compromises: I understand that ONA can’t and shouldn’t give me all of my demands, just to make me happy. I’m only one person of many ONA associates. I am not an individualist [re: individualism]: my own single person’s contentment is small and subordinate to that of the Collective/Whole Organism [the living entity that is ONA, of which we are cells]. The spirit of ONA was willing, via its OG cells, to meet me in the middle, and I will oblige by meeting the spirit of ONA half way, in that middle ground, and will – if I may – continue to help it in my own ways, as I have been doing.
Neither swinging to the Left or the Right. Neither extremism or extreme intellectualism. Buddhistically: sukkha [peace] is the Natural state of equilibrium where the Pendulum comes to rest. Ultimately, ONA must learn to neither swing in either direction, but to find its center: its natural state of peace and equilibrium. As a memeplex and social order [subculture, school of philosophy], ONA is still young, and has a lot of time to make mistakes, errors, and eventually find its Sukkha.
The various PDFs at Gawatham O9A Archive honestly makes me proud to be associated with ONA. I am hoping that new, future generations of ONA initiates/associates read and study those documents: because every thing that ONA writes [our words] are like fishnets that are cast out [as Christ taught]. And those fishnets bring in fish such fishnets are Designed to catch. Because Realistically [re: Realism] when we say “ONA” or “Order of Nine Angles” we are talking about a reific entity which is an abstract noun that isn’t real [can’t be pointed at or touched]. In Reality [re: Realism] what exists are people who are influenced by or identify with ONA. To catch Honorable fish: you need fishnets that are imbued with concepts of honorable behaviour and aristocratic/noble ethos. Those things need to be brought into the foreground, and what elements of ONA that got us into this mess [since 2018] need to be pushed to the back of the stage.
The Truce was fruitful. Now we can all return to status quo.
[*] My personal opinions/views about this document [the authority of individual judgment] – and this is purely my own fallible opinion – is that the said document was not written by Anton Long in the first place, and so, it is not primary source, and thus, is not even binding. But, at the same time, and in contrast to my individual opinion, a subculture and culture and Tribe has Elders, and such elders [especially in my strict Asian culture] and their elderly views [wise and experienced] are to be honored/respected by those younger [in age or in wisdom or in experience] than they. Our English word “Senator” does come from a certain Latin word with a topical meaning. And so, regarding that text of authority of individual judgment, my personal position is that: it is not primary text, not binding, or defining, but out of respect/honor [one who has the capacity to Honor/Respect/Venerate], being an Elder in this ONA subculture, the author’s text should be held in significant cultural/subcultural regard and thus adhered to.
.:.The snapshot is taken from the ONA MS “Authority of Individual Judgment.” There are 3 [three] points about that axiom which all ONA associates should understand and remember:
There is no such thing as an “official” or “genuine” ONA. No official interpretation of ONA which is the only correct and acceptable Order of Nine Angles.
You first must be an ONA Adept [able to answer 10 esoteric questions] and be a member of the Inner O9A before you have the proper wisdom and experience [via Pathei-Mathos] to make an interpretation of ONA.
There are no leaders or outer representative of the Order of Nine Angles.
.:.A response to the Fenrir Team and a general thinking out loud to the general ONA audience:
I personally like Nameless Therein a lot. In more ways than you think. He is a “sight for soar eyes,” as they say. I made my first post here in nearly a year on November 8th about a pendulum swing for a reason.
The reason being that ONA also has gone thru a pendulum swing. What I’m talking about, and let’s just get down to business: Agencies working thru the Tempel ov Blood have fucked shit up for ONA. The ToB has pulled ONA into a very extremist and radical direction, which eventually harmed its public image and spirit. On top of that, because the general public and junk journalists can’t tell any difference between the ONA the ToB fabricated and the ONA Anton Long fabricated, those journalists since 2018 have been killing the ONA. Which is why it’s now publicly dead: which is why you see the Old Guards take all of their websites and blogs down, and they have vacated.
Nameless Therein, represents the total opposite swing of the pendulum. I want nothing more than for him and all of you guys on the Ferir Team, Beast Xeno et al, than to see you guys go with that dialectical pendulum swing and take ONA into a place that is more intellectual, more philosophical, more spiritual, more Pagan [re: more meaningful and edificatious ((having the quality of Edification))].
But if such a pendulum swing calls for the need of a leader or an Outer Representative: then don’t just take that post/office/title. There is a right and proper way to get that office and title as a descent and honorable human being. Descent people don’t take what does not belong to them. Ask the Old Guards or Anton Long for it, if such is what you desire. Since Anton Long stopped being Grandmaster of ONA, there will always be a power vacuum. I understand that such a vacuum will be filled by somebody. But there is an honorable and right way to fill that vacuum: just ask. Don’t ask me though, I am nobody to give or offer titles and leadership positions in ONA.
I find myself back where I started in 2013. Back then, I resigned as Outer Rep because of the ToB. 2013 was when the ToB began their entryism. At that time, a book author had published a fiction novel which used the ONA as a story prop. In that novel the ONA was some organized crime cult which went around committing murders and so on. The Old Guards bemoaned amongst themselves how ONA was all soft and how it would be great if the real ONA was like the one in fiction.
That bemoaning set the stage for the entryism, where the ToB [I shouldn’t say “ToB”, to be more accurate: ToB was acting under influence of professionals] began talking about how the ONA needs a leader, and one that is hardcore and dangerous; certainly not some outer rep like me who spent time softening ONA with essays on Buddhism and Natural Philosophy.
And so at that time there grew in ONA two opposing factions: 1) one faction wanted ONA to be leaderless & 2) the other faction wanted a hardcore leader in order to make ONA hardcore.
The unfortunate thing about all of us human beings is that we learn to acquire our organic intelligence the hard way: I wanted to tell the Old Guards and general ONA population back then that if you guys follow the example of David Myatt and C18 and become hardcore radicals with radical political views, that you will reap the same exact end results as David Myatt and C18 did in the past.
Any group of people who demonstrates that they will use lethal violence in order to push their radical political beliefs will be perceived as a threat to the State. And so therefore the State will send its agents provocateur into such threats to disrupt your group, cause internal strife and distrust, in order to break that group up and neutralize it. Having a leader makes the job of such agents even more easy because you simply have to decapitate that group of its leader, and the group resultantly falls apart thereafter. It’s this stupid and silly mistake the Far Right has been making for 70 years.
But people don’t listen. They need to learn their lessons the hard way. And so fast forward to today and what happened? Thru the ToB, young kids got radicalized, they couldn’t tell the ToB’s fabricated ONA apart from Anton Long’s, the kids were manipulated to commit violent crimes, they went to jail, agents got promoted, journalists sensationalized this shit: journalists got paid, that nut case from Hate not Hope furthered his political ambitions of gaining further influence, George Soros danced around gleefully: they’re all happy and well off now, and ONA went to shit. They’re just looking for the Next Boogyman to use to further their careers and profits/power: and ONA was a good boogyman. So I left ONA back then in 2013. If they want to take ONA into that direction: fine, but I’m out. And so we all learned our lessons didn’t we? It only took a decade. Which all brings me to why I left ONA in February:
PENDULUM SWING
I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching these past few months. I’ve come to realize something I find very emotionally difficult. Two maxims have been repeating in my mind and echoing inside of me for the past year, since the beginning of 2022.
The first Maxim is something my grandmother and the old people in my culture say: “You will stumble upon that which you hate.”
I’ve come to realized that the ONA has become the very things I hate in life.
I hate democracy, because its premise is faulty. The rhetoric of democracy is that: if we get rid of the power of the King, then the “people” will have power to rule themselves. But is that the case? No, people in a democracy have no more power than serfs and indentured servants did in old Europeans kingdoms. In a democracy, cabals and organized groups of rich and powerful men control the government and country [Deep State as Trump and company calls it] and wield strong influence.
ONA has been democratized: we have gotten rid of Anton Long, gotten rid of his post as Grandmaster, stopped him from writing primary source ONA MSS. Just like England did with its monarch. And just like in any democracy: organized groups end up playing entryism and gaining control and influence: ToB did it to ONA. It’s the same pattern that took place in the USSR: an organized group of people used communism to gain influence on their Russian audience/market, took control of the country, gain their profit and career promotions… and ran Russia to shit with the collapse of the Soviet Union.
I hate Liberalism. And ONA has become very liberal. Just like how America is liberal. For example, there was a time in the long past when WASP [White Anglo-Saxon Protestant] had a meaning. Today, because of Liberalism, America has destroyed its Traditional Religion of Catholicism and Protestant Christianity, and so, there is no more “P” in WASP. America is so Liberal today, that any inkling of ethnic or racial consciousness is deemed to be racists. Ask a group of young White people in America who were all born and raised in this Liberal society of ours what their ethnicity is, and I can guarantee that most of those young kids won’t even know [lack awareness/consciousness of the fact] that they are Anglo-Saxon. And so there is no more “AS” in WASP.
That same Liberal pattern is inside ONA. Because all of us, as with all things in nature, are a product of our environment, and we all are born and raised our entire human lives inside of a Liberal society [since the 70s]. ONA has gotten rid of its Traditional religion: Traditional Satanism. You can be any type of Satanist or even any type of religion you want in ONA these days… even a Buddhist [me].
And like how America did away with its own Culture: ONA has Liberally done away with its culture. To the extent where the Old Guards, in creating the Hebdomadry Way [or whatever it’s called] said in simple English: We went thru the entire ONA corpus and we have deemed 99% of the whole thing to be useless. Cultural praxes in ONA meaning stuff like the ceremonies in the Black Book of Satan, and so on.
And just like how America puts the “American Dream” as a carrot on a stick, where it tells Americans: all that old religion, culture, and shit don’t matter because what you want and are seeking is that nebulous American Dream: ONA and the Hebdomadry Way puts the concept of “Lapis Philosophicus” [a very nebulous abstraction] as the carrot on a stick were they say: all that Satanism stuff, the ceremonies, the magic and shit, that all’s dumb and useless, all you want and need to chase after is that carrot on a stick!
All the Liberalism that the ONA has become, even going so far as to parrot Liberal society in saying that in ONA there exists “gender equality,” going so far with Reichfolk in saying that all racial diversity is Numinous and divine, and having detoothed Anton Long [making his primary source ONA MSS only “guidelines” and not binding], has led me to the second Maxim that now echoes in my mind.
Dan Dread said/coined this second Maxim. He once said: “If Satanism can meaning anything, it means nothing.”
Today, because ONA has done away with all of its old institutions – grandmaster, traditional religion, traditional culture, binding concepts, values, etc – it can mean and be anything to anyone. ONA has no established political standard. ONA has no established ethical standard. ONA has no value system. Anybody can be ONA, and as an ONA associate you can pick and chose different ONA ideas to be ONA in your own way. Some ONA people are communists, some are capitalists, some are Leftists, some are Rightist, etc. ONA today can be anything you want it to be. And so, because it can mean and be anything: it is nothing.
And that is a very big problem, as I have come to see: the problem is that because ONA is today very liberal and without established rules: people can come in, identify as ONA, or as a Nexion, and say shit like: we stand for rape… we stand for torture and rape of children.
But the problem with people being born and raised in a Liberal environment is that we do not like established rules and ethics. Because the moment Anton Long or the Old Guards say something like: “Okay… this has gone too far, we need rules and ethics” we’d all whine and cry shit like: “That’s dogma! We have a right to live our lives like we want!” ONA has no established system of value. It values nothing. It means nothing. It can be anything.
I now know that the older I grow up, the more conservative I become. I do have my one value system: I value Traditional Religion, which is why I continue to be a Theravada Buddhist, because it’s the religion of my people and race. I value Thai, Khmer, and Chinese cultures, because those are the cultures I was born and raised in and are the cultures of my own race and people. I value Ethos and Ethics based on the concept of Honor and Decency. And because of such concept of Honor and Decency, there are things, behaviours, actions, ways of speaking, ways of carrying yourself in society, ways of interacting with your elders and superiors that are “right” and “wrong.”
Many times in the past, often in Nexion Zine, I will play the devils advocate, and rhetorically write things and say things in order to see how ONA people and the Old Guards will react. For example, if I use rhetoric to make it seem like rape is fine [militaries used it in the past, etc], would they put their foot down and actually show an inkling or desire for ethical boundaries? Would they stop being Liberal and give Anton Long his teeth again where they say that such conduct and actions go against what ONA represents and values [indicating a System of Values] because it says so in such and such primary source text by Anton Long? How far must things be taken before ONA realizes that lines need to be drawn, that Ethos and Ethics need to be revisited and addressed, that boundaries need to be set, that ONA needs to represent something, that it needs solid ground to stand on: in order to be meaningful and edificatious?
I am at a point where that unless ONA changes, if it stays the way that it currently has become: then I cannot endorse it, support it, or associate with it, because it represents everything I dislike about our current Western Liberal societies, and because it [ONA] is so nebulous today that it is meaningless. Unfortunately, the people who can change it: the Old Guards and Anton Long, are no longer here, and may not even still understand that something is fundamentally wrong and broken with ONA today. By their fruit ye shall judge: it only takes a good look at the fruit/people that ONA has been producing for the past several years, to understand that something is broken. Newton was right after all: certain changes we made in the past to circumvent the Blackwood Problem created unintended negative causal reactions.
These are my last moments in ONA. Even though ONA doesn’t represent me anymore, I still have a sentimental attachment to the spirit/egregore/volksgeist of ONA which brings me back to check up on it. I hate to see it die because it is broken. In the old days, it would have been easy to work to fix the problems because Anton Long was around and you could just talk with the Old Guards about issues and they would relay such talks to Anton Long who would fix things for us. They are all gone; if they are around, they seem indifferent.
My sentimental attachments to the spirit of ONA just gives me an instinctive reaction when people seem to claim leadership or claim to be outer rep… but at this moment in time, I must admit that, I secretly believe that such might be a workable idea. But, like I said: there is a proper and decent way to get that title and post. I’ll hang around for a couple months, to see if the Old Guards will come back to help fix the problems. If they don’t come back, it means they wish for ONA to indeed publicly die away. And I will follow their cue and sever my sentimental attachments permanently. I’ve learned a lot from ONA, and I gained a very valuable Life Skill from it: writing. All that being said: the pendulum swing ONA is going into, is a good swing. I hope it will be fruitful.
We laugh at those who would dare start a nexion without reaching the physical standards of the o9a.
We laugh at those who claim to have run a nexion yet do not know the least of leading or organizing people or resources.
We laugh at those who cynically go through esoteric procedures while holding on to a fearful materialistic mindset, not rational enough to discard nonsensical visualization exercises, but not invested enough to break the veil into paranormal reality.
We laugh at those who make up esoteric procedures but remain dependent on the tool as if the tool were the essence.
We laugh at those who claim entry into the ranks of Internal Adepts yet transparently still think of others and of themselves in terms of archetypal categories while claiming the contrary, and thus getting trapped in the vicious cycle of repression and possession, those who fail to rein-in the archetype and rule over it for its usefulness to themselves.
We laugh at those who claim entry into the grade of Master or Mistress of the Earth but who still struggle with financial affairs and matters of identity, who is not a leader nor a prize of the flesh. A Master or Mistress of the Earth should already be at the top of the world, a physical ordeal does not bestow this, but Financial Independence, an untouchable sense of identity, and potent and deep charisma do.
We laugh at he who claims the title of Magus and who holds on to abstractions like “honor” and threaten slaves and sheep with “duels with mortal weapons”, and is willing to put his own life and that of another on the line and at mortal risk for the sake of such an abstraction.
We laugh at those who make up legends about immigrant-killing super-Satanists hiding in the mountains and work themselves up to the illusion of being international spies instead of simply enjoying the beauty and magic of those mountains in silence and self-honesty. Stop holding group Zen meditations up there, and instead hold orgies for Satan where those crystals are supposed to be buried. Actual SEX MAGICK, motherfuckers!
We raise our chalices in honor of that actual Magus who knew not to take his rituals, or others, or himself, as a static identity, and instead knew how to build a tangible empire out of the ashes through sheer Willpower and magical application to the point where neither he nor his family will ever want for anything material.
We raise our chalices in honor of the only real God-in-the-Flesh to grace the o9a community who moves among the American shadows raising the Dead into Eternal Life and damning the self-damning into Oblivion beyond Hell. May the Blood flow eternally into and through you, Oh Master!
May the o9a one day grow up beyond esoteric chants and crystals, beyond japes and sunedrions of little boy and girl scouts.
May the o9a one day grow up and discover that power lies within the ground they stand on and the laws and currency the common man and woman make up not as gods to worship nor as unclean objects to avoid but as resources to create the reality you choose.
May the o9a one day grow up beyond their obsession with being Mamma’s special boy or Pappa’s special girl (the vast majority of o9a members being Enneagram Type 4s, with differing degrees of pathology), and they learn that power lies in developing bonds with the common man and woman as a source of love and tribute and work.
May the o9a one day grow up and realize there is no merit in being different but only in being useful to others but mainly to yourself.
May the o9a one day grow up and realize that what they do does not change nor reflect who or what they are, and that no matter how low their actions have taken them, it is always possible to change what you decide to do and what you make of yourself without inviting guilt or sadness.
May the o9a one day grow up and realize their own methods show not that “an individual reveals their essence through their actions”, but that the past does not need to define the future, that every decision is taken now, and that you can make yourself anew at every moment of existence.
May the o9a one day wake up to the fact that Life is not to be judged nor suffered through, but enjoyed and cherished, that we can choose not to self-punish but to maximize joy and revel in survival and pleasure.
May the o9a one day remember they were not supposed to be sad singing-trekking Gnostics longing for a reality that exists only in an imaginary “green ray”, but Satanists surging with the ecstasy of power, sex, and triumph as pure joy altering the world to suit their individuality.
That the o9a has “moved on” from Satanism only shows they have misunderstood Satanism by fomenting psychopathy and misnaming it Satanism.
This has caused the embracing of anti-Life ideologies that surreptitiously have crawled into the o9a mindset through neo-nazi circles with ties to Gnosticism and ancient Greco-Roman ideas meant to manipulate soldiers and the populace into self-sacrifice.
Today, to be “inner o9a” seems to imply sadness, fatigue, and tears. Further, it seems to come with an insufferable mixture of self-absorption and self-pitying, defensiveness holding up frail personalities who bounce back from their depression with physical training and psychological self-delusion.
Those of us who have evolved through and from the old-school o9a trend, presently invaded by depressive post-suicidal personalities, are ushering in a new era of Earthly Conquest, of accomplishment, of legalistic and economic power to come not in a hypothetical distant future hidden in the mists of time, but NOW AND IN YOUR LIFETIME — because THERE IS NO OTHER TIME BUT NOW.
Re-discover Life, and know that YOU HAVE A CHOICE.
You can BE HERE for yourself, at the door of your senses, beyond your senses.
Build faith on the back of your actual accomplishments in this world NOW.
Clarice
Nexion of Ur
Patagonia
PS. We know Team Depression will answer with pseudo-intellectual/literate posts trying to fill the room we stand in with boring-ass platitudes up to our necks, but we all know how weak and meaningless these are, in the end, as they don’t change the reality of things.
There will be no removal of National Socialism or of any other philosophical stance that makes people nervous from the ONA.
Each of these extreme philosophies and ideologies are there for a reason. Each of these are there to capture a particular frame of mind and to distinguish who is going to survive and who is going to look further and who is going to avoid the traps.
Fight as much as you want, but the ONA system is made the way it is for a particular reason. It is a blaze of fire bright in the dark forest, calling out to those who can see it and who want to partake in its warmth.
The mysticism that surrounds National socialism and some of its branches is part and parcel of that, because it is that Mystic national socialism that encapsulates much of what the ONA is about beyond the racism and beyond the fanaticism and beyond the world conquering.
It is precisely in the contradictions and in the lack of quantitative methods that the truth is found. It is not in how many miles you run and how many miles you can walk with a certain weight on your back. But it is about how much you can find and how much you can become yourself.
This is the tragic truth of the ONA that there is nothing at the center, the Minotaur at the center of the labyrinth that you have to kill is yourself, not your true “self”, but the false image you have of yourself, the false ego.
The true ego is what others would call self, but it is the only ego. The only ego is the thing that looks outside and perceives everything else and everything that you perceive is outside of yourself, including your body parts, including your thoughts. And this is an old truth spoken by old religions.
That thing, that monster is you. And that monster is something beautiful, and all it does is survive and go on. But if you let it sleep, you will die. And it is the fact that most of you will die.
Do not fight for honor. Do not fight for ideologies. Do not fight. Don’t die for anything.
Honor, morality, and all of these things. They are tools. Not to control you. But to communicate to others that you are dependable, that you are trustworthy. That you’re in control of yourself and in it for the long haul. And insofar as they do this, these things (i.e. morality and honor) are useful. But only a fool dies for them.
Only the fool wastes away and dies to feed the monster that sits on the throne of skulls. That’s what the Hitler Youth was to Hitler, and that was what the SS embodied. The whole of Germany became an instrument for his immortality. Now you don’t need to be an instrument for David Wulstan Myatt’s immortality.
Those who have ears to hear: CEASE IDENTIFYING with whatever you think the ONA is and take from it what WILL MAKE YOU STRONGER.
YOU CAN BUILD SOMETHING, and that is all that matters.
You can build something for yourself that will endure and thrive for decades or centuries or even millennia.
YOU CAN DEVOUR THE ONA or it can devour you.
That is the way of all flesh.
弱肉强食.
Furious mountain winds in their passing must spare this spot For red maple leaves are clinging even yet to the branch.
* Part One: Differing Perceptions Of The Order Of Nine Angles.
* Part Two: Baeldracian, Falciferian, Rynethian.
* Part Three: Omega9Alpha As Culture And Subculture.
* Conclusion: Future Non-Western Omega9Alpha Subcultures
* Appendix: A Rediscovered Balobian Treasure.From the Conclusion: Given (i) the ‘principle of the authority of individual judgment’ and (ii) the fact that the ω9α code of kindred-honour applies irrespective of gender, ethnicity, perceived social/educational status, nationality, and sexual preference, and (iii) that ω9α culture does not embody racist neo-nazism in ethos or in principle, ω9α culture can be further diversified and thus develop new subcultures that encompass the insights and some of the practices of non-European esoteric and mystic traditions.
This has already happened in a clandestine way in places such as Egypt and Iran where nexions have been established which incorporate some Sufi traditions and insights (and in the case of Iran, memories of Sumka) as well as in Japan where a clandestine nexion incorporates the insights of Yukio Mishima (as manifest in his quartet The Sea Of Fertility) with the esoteric non-racist National-Socialism of Reichsfolk. In Turkey, a clandestine nexion exists which blends Myattian insights – from his philosophy of pathei-mathos – with elements of Sufism, stories from لْفُ لَيْلَةٍ وَلَيْلَةٌ and aspects of ω9α culture in a still developing individual and mystical quest for wisdom.
Such new and developing subcultures are expanding ω9α culture and harbingers of not only a New Aeon but of a new type of civilization independent of nations and States and old aeon notions of Empire and physical conquest.