Nineteen & Fate

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.:.I have a small habit to my character that is similar to what some serial killers have: I re-visit places of the past, connected to memories, and I linger there in those places of the past, in silence, to relive those past moments. I went to go re-visit a place in cyberspace that is associated with past memories: Darkness Converges.

It was a blog owned by a 352er nymmed “Sinistar666.” He was a police officer from New York. We had good times back then. I wish he was around to see what has become of everything. Time erodes everything away, doesn’t it? Friendships and loved ones become washed away by the tides of Time. Sinistar used to love being ONA. There was a funny event that took place very long ago at our private WSA forum involving Sinistar.

Back in 2007, we had our own cheap forum. Back then, what we did was search the internet for any ONA stuff we could find and we’d post them in our forum. And then, under the pen name “Caligula,” me and whoever else who wanted to, would write new essays where we would update all those old ONA articles by Anton Long. At the time, ONA was so dormant that it was as good as dead in cyberspace. And so me and my WSA friends could not ask ONA for permission to collect their essays and update them for our generation and time. And so it felt like as if we were stealing ONA stuff and using them, and updating them without permission.

In our forum there was a map app that showed a map of the world, and when somebody came to our forum, a dot showed up on that map to tell us where in the world that person was from. We had a “look-out” named Frank352 who watched that map for every dot. Frank352 was a older man from Malta who really liked underaged girls. One day Frank saw a dot on the map from England and he told us about it. Sinistar got paranoid and said: “Shit, what if it’s Anton Long? We stole his ONA!” Hearing him say that got me scared. And so I ordered that we shut down the forum for a week and not be active.

After about a week, Sinistar, over at MySatan [once the largest social network for Satanists] admitted to me saying: “I haven’t had good sleep in a week. I’ve been sleeping with my gun and a sword because I keep thinking one of those ONA people will find me and opfer me for stealing Anton Long’s shit.” I laughed hard for a few days.

I started writing Satanic essays when I was in my late teens. I had met a cool older Satanist guy on MySpace, who wrote essays inside of a Yahoo email account, and he would share his essays with anybody who wanted to read them by giving them the password to that Yahoo email. I thought that was a great idea, and I copied him and began writing these dumb wanna-be essays in a Yahoo account. When I discovered forums, I used those forums as a writing platform to write and share my essays.

And so, in about 2008, with our collective 352 penname “Caligula,” I wrote an essay called “Nineteen,” which Saturnyan352 made into Chapter 31 of Opus Vrilis, and Sinistar posted at Darkness Converges. I’ll reproduce that essay here, with all of the original spelling mistakes [I was very younger back then, and I dropped out of high school]:

[Begin Nineteen]

Nineteen is the essence of our primal Satanism. It is the 10 proclamations plus the 9 Fundamentals of our progressive Satanism. Nineteen is the last Enochian Key which explains the nature and reality of physical existence in its truest existential form – the law of thrift, and of the jungle. The Nineteenth Key sets forth the primal doctrine of Might Is Right and the Darwinian Struggle. It describes the inequality of living creatures and reveals the law of survival of the most fit:

The Earth, let her be governed by her parts; and let there be divisions in her; the glory of her may be always drunken and vexed in itself. Her course, let it run with the fulfillment of lust; and as an handmaiden, let her serve them. One season, let it confound another; and let there be no creature upon or within her the same. All her numbers, let them differ in their qualities; and let there be no one creature equal with another. The reasonable creatures of the earth, and Man, let them vex and weed out one another; and their dwelling places, let them forget their names.” – 19th Enochian Key.

Within our Acception, 19, is the symbol of Primal Nature and the universal law of Nature, expressed through all of Her arts and parts. The strong survives to live another day to establish mastership over the weak; but the collective of the Mighty, without limitation of ethical concepts of right and wrong, shall rise to dominate even the masters themselves, who have not learned the valuable lesson from the noble and mighty Ant: Coherency equals Supremecy over the Jungle. Those of us who can understand the meaning and mystery of 19, who can live according to its dictates, shall eventually rise to Supremecy above the bovine Urbanites.

The power of 19, mixed with coherency and organization gives birth to Eternal Empires. The unlimited ruthlessness of Genghis Khan, the Might of Alexander the Great, the Greatness of George Washinton and his Rebels gave them the ultimate prize of this lawless game of life: Power, Dominion, Empire, and Immortality. These men are our Brothers and teachers. These men, who knew the gift that the Law of 19 bestows unto those who understand its mysteries, and fulfills its promise.

The key to power and supremecy isn’t “Do unto others, as they do unto you,” it is: Do unto others BEFORE they do unto you.

Our reason d’etre isn’t to teach the curious seeker softcore mind games of philosophy, theory, or magic, they may go else where for this, or study this on their own time. Our meaning and purpose here in the Acception is to coagulate, amalgamate, organize, and cohesify our individual members into a coherent organism to struggle as a single collective force to express and manifest the mystery of the Law of 19 to achieve power and supremecy, and hardcore results in the real world for us, and our future progeny alone at the total cost and expense of all others who do not belong to our Acception. – (Opus Vrilis, Chapter 31)

THE TEN PROCLAMATIONS OF 352

1) I Proclaim that I am the center of my own universe; I exalt myself as my own personal Deity, in progression to Godhood.

2) I Proclaim that I am a unique manifestation of ubiquitous Supernal Light in physical expression; which also manifests itself as everything and everyone around me.

3) I Proclaim that I am a being in the state of evolution, that I cannot stand still or I shall die, but rather I must Progress, and whatever gods, magic, religions, and tools I can use towards this end shall only help me evolve into the Ubermensch.

4) I Proclaim the supremacy of mind over matter. That my Will and Intent, fueled with Imagination, Passion and Determination has the power to alter and change my reality accordingly.

5) I Proclaim my belief in the Dark Force of Nature; dark because it has never been brought into the light of understanding; whom I personally identify as Satan.

6) I Proclaim that Nature, in all its manifestations, is the One Great Book of Illumination, written by the hand of Satan as my law and guide to Enlightenment.

7) I Proclaim my belief in the Power and Might of One, in the Brotherhood of Man, the Sisterhood of Woman; the Collective of Our Family, over the segregated mass.

8.) I Proclaim that I am awakened and realize that I am a 90 Percenter, a slave to the 10 Percent who own 90 percent of the wealth; who are my true enemy, who usurped the sovereignty of my ancestors to gain their dominion.

9) I Proclaim my ultimate Freedom and Liberation from this prison and slavery; and will do all in my power to obtain this Freedom and Liberation.

10) I Proclaim the sanctity and ecstasy of Mortal Existence; that the Law of Life is Do What Thou Wilt and nothing more but to Love and be Loved in return.

THE NINE FUNDAMENTALS OF 352

1- The Black Book of Satan, Naos, and other Order of Nine Angles manuscripts written by Anton Long is official text of our People. AS IS Brothers and Bitches. Don’t nobody here give a fuck if Anton Long was David Myatt or if ONA is real or not? The shits got value, and the OG’s of our Tribe incorporated it into our system, and practice it. These books are like road maps. You can beat and thump on it all day and study every minute fucking detail of the map down to the letter; but you still ain’t never gunna compare to the map illiterate person who LIVES inside a ciy, and experiences it directly. I can barely read a map of the city I live in myself, but if you came to my city, I would be able to show you around to places and people that ain’t on the map.

2- Opus Vrilis is one of our People’s Books. The whole fucken thing, from the first chapter to the last, AS FUCKING IS Bitches and Brothers! Now you can argue that Anton LaVey didn’t mean what he said in the Satanic Bible, and interpret it your fucking way, and that might be cool with whatever tribe your associating with cuz the mutherfucker is dead and can’t explain himself. But Caligula is fucking alive. He wrote the fucking shit AS IS. It ain’t the Constitution, and we ain’t Federal Lawyers Family! If your reading this shit and your getting something completely different from the rest of us, then something wrong with your ass! You need to go back to school and learn to read, or you thinking to fucking much and seeing words and letters that aren’t there.

3- The first two Fundamental are themselves only Commentaries of the Great Book of Nature. The Book of Nature isn’t some fuck pile of paper with a black cover. It’s the fucking shit outside your fucking window. It’s the shit outside your piece of shit head. More specifically its the Nature outside the city. Your fucking brain was born and raised in the Urban Illusion. Conditioned to see things from a fucking man-made perspective. That man-made shit isn’t fucking Real. The Real shit is what is left when cities and states are gone. get the fuck out of your heads. overcome your fucking conditioning, and reconnect your asses back with what was, is, and will always be Real.

The rest of what has to be said concerning Our Way is based on our Three Sources, read em and check it:

4- When we say “progression” we don’t mean everybody’s progression. Fuck everybody. We mean each of us 352er has a duty of personal self progression to execute. Think for your fucking self, don’t just “tree hug” a book and stay in one place. Read the shit, take what you need, and fucking MOVE. Grow man. If your Satanism and understandings of the world is the same today as it was last week, then you ain’t Progressive, and something fucking wrong with you! Your ass is gunna get run over by those of us who are moving forward. Forward to what you might ask? To fucking self Liberation and Enlightenment; says Caligula.

5- Liberation from what? From religious and state control and laws man, as stated by Opus Vrilis. What the fuck does that mean? It mean fuck religion, and fuck the state too. It means fuck morals, and also, fuck secular laws. It means if you want to work on the Sabbath, go right fucking ahead and break that law if it liberates your ass. It means if you think jay walking is gunna help liberate your ass then jay walk man. Rape, murder, robbery, go fucking ahead. But if you get caught, you a stupid mutherfucker. If it liberates you, and you can get away with it, by all fucking means do it. If this shit benefits you and feeds your family, do it. Do I we condone violence and or crime? Where the fuck did I said that at? These actions are a fuckin means to an END dipshit. The end being the understanding that like religious laws, state laws are an illusion and a fetter. Its like the little elephant that is raised chained by the leg to a fuckin pole all his damn fucking life. When that elephant grows up, you can tie a weak as string to its leg and it won’t resist or try to break free from its fetter, because it believes in the illusion it was raised within. If you can practice intense day dreaming and or live through other vicariously to “experience” breaking state fetters and it will full fill the same END result for your ass, then do it that way.

6- Enlightenment, like what? It means the fucking answer ain’t in Satanism dumbass. Our Satanism is a practical, pragmatic, applicable tool to actualize Enlightenment. It means put the fucking book down, get the hell out of your house, and go fucking DO SOMETHING for the experience and actively grow your enlightenment. This shit grows like a fuckin fruit on a tree from the experience you collect in life. Direct fucking experience. Face to face. Put your ass in the middle of Nature and Life and LIVE the mutherfucker. Wisdom grows from experience. Knowledge is collected from books. If Enlightenment can be found in a book or religion, than every literate, religious mutherfucker out there should have found it; but guess what, they didn’t. Religion, theology, and politics has never lead anybody to Enlightenment. Not since the history of mankind. Did the Buddha find Enlightenment? Yeah. Was he in a religion or reading a book? No, he was in the fucking forest, in the middle of nature. His followers founded “Buddhism.” Has any of his followers found Enlightenment? Nature, as Opus Vrilis states is our Great Source of Light. The reading of Nature is called Science. Observation, Experimentation, Critical Thinking, Commonsense, and Intuition are all tools needed to read this fucking Great Source which is Nature in all its cosmic and earthly manifestations. Our way is based not on stupid shit like spirits and demons; its based on fucking Science. If what your beliefs contradicts Nature and Science, then you a stupid mutherfucker, and you need to go join a Dungeons and Dragons Coven or something cuz you don’t got the mental capacity to hang with this group. If the descriptor “Primal Naturalism” don’t seem to describe your Satanism, then you can leave.

7- Opus Vrilis says nobody in our system give a shit what you believe. Nobody care about your fucking opinions or convictions. Thats your shit, and you need to keep that shit to yourself, and push it aside. Because opinions and convictions of a religious and political nature doesn’t do shit but divide us and give birth to war. And this ain’t cool with us. Why? Because our Acception was built and designed to be a fucking Tribe or coherent cooperative with a future goal and purpose, and if we all can’t get along in our Acception, we ain’t getting shit done. What the fuck is a belief worth, if it don’t feed you or get shit done? If you ain’t into Tribalism and collective social order, than this shit isn’t for you, nobody asked you to come here. Nobody’s assimilating you, leave! Our shit is a Family, and everybody needs to be of that mentality, or you don’t belong man. We do things as a group. If somebody in the Family hates an outsider, we all hate the mutherfucker. If a brother or sister got an enemy, that enemy is an enemy to all of us. If someone in the family shares an opinion that you don’t agree with – shut the fuck up and don’t be instigating inside fights. Arguing and debating on intangible opinions don’t make fucking money or feed your ass. Stop that shit. Outsiders do that shit. The more divided we are, the easier it is for outsiders to control and conquer us.

8- Profane Satanist in the profane world outside our Acception: Fuck em. Do they feed you? Do they got your back? Will they be there fore you when you need some money to pay your rent? They ain’t any better than any other outsider. Why? Cuz them mutherfucker don’t give a shit about you or your personal family. They are worthless. The only value they have to our Acception is how we can use each of them to our People’s profit and benefit. Its a dog eat dog world man. With us being tight and organized, and the Profane all separated, segregated, individualized, they all easy PREY. Fuck em. It’s the Law of Nature. This is Our Way. If you ain’t down with it, get the fuck out.

9- Whats this shit all about? Its about money. Its about knowing that 90 percent of the wealth is in the hands of 10 percent of the Profane Population. Its about realizing that we all in the same fucking shit hole every other 90 percenter is in. Don’t fucking matter if your black, white, Asian, Mexican, straight, gay, Christian, or Satanists. You will go to their schools, learn their teaching, use their money, get into debt under them, and spend the rest of your fucking life working to house them and feed their children. And when you die for your life long slavery, your children will take your fucking place to slave and serve their children. Its about waking the fuck up to this understanding, banding together and helping each other out of this fucking hell hole thru financial independence by any means necessary. Just us, the rest of them mutherfucken hole-moles can eat shit and die for all we care, or use them.

[End Nineteen]

When I was re-reading that essay, an hour ago, I saw “seed ideas” inside of that essay, which ended up blossoming into fully formed philosophical stuff I end up writing about in Nexion Zine.

That essay Nineteen is a Fateful essay. If I had never written that, none of THIS would have ever happened. The Fateful part was that after that essay had been published in our forum, some fat slob named Magister Blackwood had read it and he talked shit about it!

At first, I didn’t know anybody was talking shit about that essay. One day, one of our 352 brothers nymmed Seti352 said to me [regarding that Nineteen essay and somebody talking shit about it]: “We must be famous… we’re on wordpress!”

I said back to Seti: “What’s wordpress?”

And Seti replied: “Here, have a look,” and he gave me the link.

I clicked on that link, and it took me to wordpress. I had never heard of wordpress before, and had never heard of blogs before. That link Seti gave me took me to an article written by some retard named Magister Blackwood who said that he was the high priest of the Temples of Satan. And in that article this retard talked shit about the 10 Proclamations.

I was offended by what that retard magister had said about the WSA and our 10 Proclamations. But I was more interested in what blogs were, and how I can use blogs as a medium to share my writings! And so, in 2008, I made my own wordpress blog at “onanxs.wordpress.com”. At first, I used that blog [back in 2008; I later deleted everything posted during 2008] to attack this Blackwood guy, in spite, because he talked shit about me. And that started this whole internet fight between Blackwood and our WSA. That internet fight can still be found on google.

Having that blog, and all that fighting, began to get me and the WSA noticed by the remnants of the ONA. And that’s how we eventually met Kris of the Temple of THEM. That huge fight me and the WSA guys had with Blackwood also caught the attention of the Old Guards of ONA: DarkLogos, PointyHat, etc. Eventually, in a comment section of one of our essays at our onanxs wordpress blog, Kris had left a link to a quote. Kris had quoted DarkLogos. That was the biggest mistake Kris ever made and the biggest wyrdful chess move Fate made.

I use to be into popularity contests in high school and on MySpace. And so, I’m sensitive to social order and social structures. When you quote someone, like radar, you reveal your position in a social hierarchy: you don’t quote nobodies below you in social or intellectual rank in a positive way, especially when you imply that such person you quoted has some kind of authority. And so, I thought to myself: “If Kris is the leader of the ONA or the leader of the only ONA group… then whoever this DarkLogos he quoted is, must be superior to him in ONA’s social hierarchy.”

And so, I clicked on that link Kris gave to me. That link took me to a Yahoo Group dedicated to David Myatt. I fatefully requested membership. DarkLogos made me a member of that David Myatt Yahoo group, and made me an admin. And I used my social skills to befriend him, and asked him to help me and our WSA become bona fide ONA.

If I had never written that Nineteen essay, none of this would have ever came to be. Blackwood would have never talked shit about it. I would have never used wordpress. Never had a convenient medium to practice writing. Never gotten into huge fights with Blackwood. Never been noticed by the remnants of ONA. Never been noticed by the Old Guards. Never had the chance to befriend DarkLogos.

It’s interesting to walk back into time and re-read the one Essay that put into motion a developmental process of me writing for 13 years and 6000 pages non-stop. Because of that old, stupid essay, I met the right people at the right time, and gradually developed into a Natural Philosopher, on a Quest, like Anton Long was on a Quest, like David Myatt was on a Peregrination, to understand Mysterium: the Mysteries and Secrets of Nature and the Universe.

Nature, is indeed the Great Book of Illumination. Step by step… it’s as if something guides you in life towards your Destiny/Dharma/Wyrd.

/Chloe


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